I haven’t posted in awhile but that’s because I haven’t done anything but work. I haven’t spent any time knitting or reading novels. I haven’t even been to the gym. What I have been doing is sulking or to be mature about it, experiencing a certain amount of ennui regarding my hobbies and interests.
I’ve given up on geek culture because I just can’t take adults who act like children seriously. The global economy and the environment are both on the precipice of disaster yet my fellow geeks waste more time and energy being enraged at George Lucas for alleged changes he’s made to the upcoming Blu-Ray release of Star Wars. My choice is to not buy the Blu-Ray edition when released and just enjoy the version of Star Wars I already own. Easy. No gnashing of teeth or writing of angry blog posts about how Lucas has ruined my childhood.
Also, when I can’t tell the difference between a 12 year-old and 40 year-old because they’re wearing similar clothing and hairstyles and share the same mannerisms, something has gone terribly wrong. I was getting to the point of being guilty of this but hopefully caught myself before I embarrassed myself. I’m sure I still need time to deprogram from the influence of the Internet these past 3 years.
It is my belief that as an adult, one is supposed to enjoy an increased amount of complexity whether sensual, emotional, and/or intellectual. As adults we can appreciate a fine red wine or complex novel because we have built up a store of experiences as well as a vocabulary to find and give meaning to each new thing we encounter or engage in. In other words it’s fine to enjoy comic books but immature if one never reads beyond them. Being well educated doesn’t ruin imagination because in order to imagine one must have a base of knowledge and experience to begin with.
I haven’t been knitting out of a simple fear that I’ll screw up my dad’s sweater. I know I just have to suck it up buttercup and just do it. I think I’ll start tonight. Right now I’m trying to decide if I want to do 1 swatch or 2 since the sweater features a moss stitch detail.
To get past my disappointment in geek culture and my ennui re: everything else I’ve decided to just step down a new path for the remainder of this year and for 2012. I won’t be going on those wished for trips to conventions because 1. I bought a new truck and 2. I really don’t want to anymore.
Instead I’m going to dedicate myself to exploring my roots by indulging in my Scandinavian, British, and Canadian heritage. I’d rather use my time and intellect pursuing my wonderfully nerdy interests and just leave geek culture behind (for the time being). I’m also not going to make any real plans. I have a vague interest in visiting England and Norway next year but no definite plans. I want to leave any future planning for 2012 and just see where my more intellectual pursuits lead me.